Update

I've taken the last two weeks off blogging. I needed to just step away from this. I think to a certain extent just acknowledging that I was depressed was causing me to become worse. It may be unhealthy in the long run but I'm just trying to entertain myself and ignore the depression and let it fall into the background.

I think it is working, I've been bored over the last couple weeks because I just haven't been doing much of anything, but at least the very little I was doing wasn't worrying about how terrible I feel. I've been incredibly unproductive. I've been lazy before, but I'm even surprising myself. The days seem to be blurring into each other because apart from the two days a week I make the commute to school nothing happens in my life.

I woke up really early today in an attempt to readjust my sleeping hours to a regular time and length. Like the last time I took this particular medication I got horrible insomnia. Normally it was taking hours to fall asleep and two nights (not consecutive) I didn't fall asleep at all. All that really messed me up. I was sleeping whenever I could and because I was either getting very little sleep (2-4 hours) or lots (12+ hours) I was awake for unpredictable amounts of time at all different times of day. It was a kind of zombie-like existence. I reduced the dosage and like last time I have adjusted to the medication and I am now having much less difficulty sleeping.

I still have no motivation, which explains the 8 hours of TV a day but at least I'm beginning to be concerned about getting my school work done. I have one short English essay that is overdue (I have an extension) and a moderate length ecology research paper due before the end of classes in early April. I think I'll be fine though, I still have lots of time.

I'm also becoming increasingly excited about next year. I'll be moving back out of my parent's house, likely into residence. I'd prefer to live off-campus but I don't think I can afford Toronto's cost of living, especially since I didn't work much of this school year and will likely not work much if any of the next, especially if I score a work-study or service bursary position. An apartment would offer more space and freedom than residence but residence is probably a better choice since I plan on being super involved next year to make up for doing absolutely nothing extra-curricular this year.

In particular I intend to start a Comedy and Improv club on campus. There are a lot of theatre students at Glendon and many shows big and small throughout the year, but in general the department has a very elitist view on performance. Perhaps borne of poverty and lack of resources and a good venue the department has taken a stern view of anything that doesn't fit into its very sombre and minimalist modern drama mould. Comedy in the department is mostly limited to inaccessible black comedies and depressing meaning-of-life satires. Sure it is all very academic, but how about instead of Theatre of the Absurd we just do something that is actually absurd. You know, like farce or physical comedy or something trashy or loud or stupid. It would be nice to watch a play at Glendon that didn't have some grand philosophical paradox at its core. Escapism has its merits and I intend to be its greatest advocate in the next school year.

That being said, my goal for the year will be to arrange a production of the play SEX: a.k.a. Wieners and Boobs by Joe Lo Truglio, Michael Showalter and David Wain. The three are alumni of the sketch group "The State," and all three had their hands in the cult hit movie "Wet Hot American Summer" which was directed by Wain and co-written and produced by Wain and Showalter who also starred as "Coop". Wain and Showalter are also members of the sketch group Stella which had a recent short stint on Comedy Central. These guys are probably some of the funniest people around. If you have some spare time you should read some of the script, it is hilarious. Several times while reading it I had to stop and take a break I was laughing so hard.

I leave you with an ass-shot. Before someone points it out, yes my shoes and underwear are the same pattern.

Keep on Tranglin,
Anthony

14 comments:

Fucking Bingo said...

Next year is going to be fantastic, and the Comedy troupe is going to be so good for Glendon, especially is we get funding for it (and I don't see why not).

Sidenote: I just realized how much I enjoy reading your blogs. I don't know what it is. I think it might be the way you write about things. I'm not sure.

Anonymous said...

You know I want to live above a Chinese restaurant with you and have monthly themed dinner parties, but there isn't a way that I can do the math that convinces me that I can afford both Toronto rent and food. Maybe if I stop eating I can make it work.

Knitty Kitty said...

glad to see you back, moving out can do amazing things for your self esteem, but then your mum doesn't do your laundry... damn I miss not having to do laundry!

Anonymous said...

I've been doing my own laundry for about 7 years so I've mostly gotten over that.

Scarlet Hip said...

I used to have Vans just like those. Only mine were high tops. Uber cool.

Fella said...

Did you know that your shoes and underwear sport the same pattern?

Loz said...

ass-shots are so much better than reading the same post everyday for 2 weeks.
did you match your underwear to your shoes on purpose?

Fucking Bingo said...

I think what people are failing to notice is that he has an ass. Am I the only one who is surprised by this, because it seemed to have appeared out of nowhere.

Fucking Bingo said...

Good call. Maybe not for Anthony.

Fella said...

KABOOOM! I was just kidding, I didn't really explode.

Fucking Bingo said...

I should probably point out that Nick here was specifically designed to blow up and kill you.

-I see, well this is certainly awkward.

Anonymous said...

I'd come see your play!

Ubermilf said...

I can't believe I didn't comment yet... I read this.

I would like to remind the world that you also have a hat that matches those shoes AND those undies.

diadima said...

i'm going back to glendon in september. it's either that, or join the circus- and i don't much like the smell of cabbage so...glendon it is.

we should be room mates.